Today is my oldest son's birthday, he is 19 years.
I haven't written for a while. Honestly, I am exhausted. The experience of seeing my father, the person I learned to look up to and respect decline so rapidly is beyond comprehension. The experience is surreal. Although I have understood the diagnosis of Alzheimer's disease I do not understand the emotional burden. Most of the time I don't know what to think. I pray. I think of my dad after I have visited and feel completely helpless and horrified for him.
Yesterday he couldn't remember that he was a veteran of the Korean conflict. He did remember his army serial number. And if I questioned him he eventually did remember he went to Korea. He also was seeing things in front of him and kept reaching out to touch it. It looked like he was touching air. And he asked what it was, and then said, "Is that just my eyes."
His hearing seems to be diminishing also. He is nearly helpless except that he can walk. He recognizes me and my daughter and oldest son, atleast he did yesterday.
phewww...I am really overwhelmed and amazed.
I haven't written for a while. Honestly, I am exhausted. The experience of seeing my father, the person I learned to look up to and respect decline so rapidly is beyond comprehension. The experience is surreal. Although I have understood the diagnosis of Alzheimer's disease I do not understand the emotional burden. Most of the time I don't know what to think. I pray. I think of my dad after I have visited and feel completely helpless and horrified for him.
Yesterday he couldn't remember that he was a veteran of the Korean conflict. He did remember his army serial number. And if I questioned him he eventually did remember he went to Korea. He also was seeing things in front of him and kept reaching out to touch it. It looked like he was touching air. And he asked what it was, and then said, "Is that just my eyes."
His hearing seems to be diminishing also. He is nearly helpless except that he can walk. He recognizes me and my daughter and oldest son, atleast he did yesterday.
phewww...I am really overwhelmed and amazed.
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